Sz Documentary Films
by Porcelain Utopia’s Jonathan Harnisch
formerly of Fat Man Media and Harnisch Productions
I am Jonathan
T h e S h a t t e r e d S t a i n e d G l a s s
Being A Mentally Ill Artist
A Portrait Of The “New” Jonathan Harnisch in 2012
Having retired from professional filmmaking, this had been where I left off; a study of psychosis and schizoaffective disorder as I saw it through the schizophrenic lens in 2009 and 2010.
Derived from the original “F@#king Wonderland” experience, “I am Jonathan” is intended to be educational; target audience being grad students in psychology and counseling.
It’s just time for me to let it go, at this point in my life. I do hope it might prove helpful, offer hope and understanding of what schizoaffective is like for me on a daily basis.
I continue my recovery though not cured. It’s a devastating illness, isolating and often indescribable. I continue to look for hope, distractions, humor and inspiration, especially in the arts.
This is the best I could do with the project. To continue is just not an option as my cognitive abilities have declined over the years. I still post inspirational material on:
THE REAL ME
Podcast on iTunes:
SCHIZOPHRENIC & CAREGIVER
Free Music Therapy:
More Jonathan Harnisch Films:
“I’m sure some of you will find it hard to watch this video. I can only say for me, I found it very eye opening as to the confusion and what must feel like hell to live at times as a schizophrenic. I would HIGHLY recommend reading some of Jonathan’s writing before you watch the film. Why, you may ask? Because he is ONE hell of an inspiration and shares words of hope along with positive thinking. The man has MORE guts and determination than I can imagine.”
-C. T. via Facebook
F@#KING WONDERLAND: TRAILER (2010)
F@#KING WONDERLAND: TRAILER
The 1-minute trailer for a film Jonathan Harnisch has been working on over the years documenting his real-life struggle with schizophrenia.
Here’s the full version, always being worked on as you’ll see as more films open up, i.e. “I am Jonathan,” and more to come.
F@#KING WONDERLAND: FULL-LENGTH DOCUMENTARY (2010)
TAKE TWO – I AM JONATHAN: FULL-LENGTH DOCUMENTARY (2011)
More Jonathan Harnisch/Porcelain Utopia Schizophrenia Films are in the making. Look out for the possibility of a full sereis of Jonathan’s ongoing daily struggle with Sz and his continued resiliency and passion for his search for self and meaning.
DELETED SCENES: SET #1 (2010)
The Shattered Stained Glass [Cryptic Cut] (2011)
Jonathan’s keeping up with maintaining Porcelain Utopia, The Daily Dose (online newspaper), The Real Me podcast, the musical band with Schizophrenic & Caregiver, and The Collected Writings of Jonathan Harnisch, an 800 page series called “The Dreamer Sleeps without Dreaming.” Jonathan’s forthcoming “Lover in the Nobody” is set for publication in 2013.
Jonathan’s online and free-to-all personal diaries covering the span of one full year in a state of psychosis back in 2006 is being transcribed. The 800 page, handwritten journals were never intended for publication of any sort but, as Jonathan opens up, what is in the past, stays there, and yet again, more of his story unfolds–sometimes evoking laughter, sometimes shock and elation, as well as tears, both the good tears, and the “bad.”